Something to look back to

18 Jun

written June 3, 2011

Some thoughts have piled up over the weeks and they’re all over the place, and I don’t know how to organize them at this moment. I’ll just write, and please bear with me if you ever want to continue reading this, and find out later on that it’s all over the place too — and you may have just wasted your time reading through this.

Anyway. I warned you.

A few months ago, I was writing an entry about my graduation, and then all of a sudden, I’m right here trying to write an entry about something that is yet about to happen. The anticipated near future.

As some of you may know, I will be enrolling in a medicine school, and you know what that means, right? It’s trying times. I am well aware that it is extremely, extremely difficult to go through medschool. I know that. I’ve been discouraged by some people many times, but what can I do? I just don’t see myself in any other field but this. However, I know that knowing the difficulty is an entirely different story from feeling it – which, I am yet about to do.

Thus, I am writing this entry just so my future self could have something positive to look back to during the times when I would be pushed to the limits, feel trashed and stomped on, possibly feel worthless and not good enough. I am just anticipating. However, this is what I want. I know it is difficult, but I’ve already made up my mind, and felt it in my heart that this is really what I want. If one day I have a change of heart, and I become a different person (May God protect me from that), I want to look back to this time, when I have the zeal, the passion to do this.

I remember one of our lecturers while I was still in Public Health. He told the class that during his medschool days, when he was at the verge of giving in, he told himself that “Hey! I have to go on. This is what I wanted, and I can get through this.”

It is not advisable to fret over something that has not yet come, but I just want to have something to look back to. I want to feel this burning passion again, if one day it packs its bag and deserts me (God forbid).

Shaima, you weighed your thoughts for months, and came to conclusion that Medicine is what you want, and you’re just about to go through it, then please, please, please… go through it. Until the end. Keep fighting. You can do it. You may not be the best in class, you may not be the best, but you can do it! By all means you can do it. God is with you. Your family is with you. Your friends are with you. Your ideals are with you.

Remember… Finishing medine is not an end for you. It is your means. A means for you to be able to do things beyond yourself. By becoming a doctor, you would have the means, the tool to be able to provide service to the people that need you. Those people that do not receive the care and attention that they should get. Please. Please. Don’t change for the worse. Become someone better than who you are now. Do not forget this time. Please, do not forget.

I do not know what is in store for me, of what I would become… but I certainly pray that I do not lose this passion, this eagerness to take a hold of goodness, and to scatter it around. I pray that I become a person who genuinely, genuinely wants to help. Even through the extremely trying times. Allahumma Aameen.

For something that has not yet come to existence, I could only pray, for it is something uncertain. Who knows… I may not even be alive to reach that extremely trying times. But just in case, I do… I want to wield courage, patience, and fortitude.

I have very, very, very big dreams. Dreams that are so beyond myself. But living in the kind of world that we have, I want to do something. Something that would make an impact. Something that would change lives. I don’t even want to be remembered. I just want to change lives and touch hearts. I just want to instigate better changes. You may have heard of this from hundreds of people before me, and you may say gasgas na yan… but from the bottom of my heart., this is really what I want to do. This is something that I’ve set myself to do to be of service to the Ummah that I know Allah (s.w.t.) loves so much.

You may say I’m a bit arrogant to dream such a big dream.. but I choose not to give up on it. I may be just a small person.. ordinary.. but I believe if we choose to step up, and go beyond ourselves, if we set our heart, mind and soul to it… maybe… maybe if God wills it, we just might be able to do it. We might be able to do great things. Things not comprable to the small and limited things that we are capable of doing at the moment (although we should not understimate these too ;) these small things may be great things to certain people :D ).

Again, I am writing this in anticipation of the difficult times I might face in medschool. I’d like to remind myself of this. I should not give in to the pressure, the negative forces, and the toxicity of the life as a med student. I must remember that surviving this thing that I am about to enter is not an end. It is a means for something else, to continue walking forward. InshaAllah.

That is all. This entry is for myself. Some of you may be on the same boat as me, yes? ;)

PS.

Remember this excitement mixed with nervousness. Remember this time.

Just another story told

18 Jun

written April 15, 2011

Four years ago, one naïve small town girl who was just seemingly floating through her present life back then got lucky and managed to enter the premier university of her country. She had no clear vision of what kind of future she wants for herself, and not even in her wildest childhood dreams did it occur to her that she would one day be studying in this university. But then, fate with all its mysteries surprised her and took her from the stagnant environment, and instead, injected her to a very dynamic environment.

 

Well, actually, her world has always been dynamic – only this time, she allowed herself to see this.

 

She barely knew the world back then – she was 16 years of age, cowardly, and running away from the nightmares that was her present at that time. For the sake of change, and for the sake of breaking free – she traveled miles. She was extremely afraid – partly because of her inexperience, and partly because she didn’t know what is in store for her in a completely strange place. She prepared herself for the worst, including the thought that she would be ostracized by a community which she is yet about to meet. Because she was different.

 

However, as cowardly as she was back then, and as afraid as she was – she tried to go on with it. Hence, she entered a university which was miles and miles away from her home town. A university she deemed so high that she didn’t even see herself entering it. But she did, and the series of changes happened in her life.

 

It was four years – only four years, yet all sorts of changes happened in every aspect of her life. She grew up, she started to open her eyes to the world, saw how unfair the world is, she was hurt several times, she became tired, she, she was brought several times at the brink of giving it all up. But time and again – although it was so much difficult, she tried to keep moving forward. It wasn’t an easy feat.

 

But amidst and in spite of everything, she considers herself very lucky. And she would like to embrace everything involved in her life – and she would like to embrace whatever that would present itself in front of her. Good or bad. Painful or otherwise.

 

She is so grateful that God led her in this university. A university that is so diverse and so much respecting of everyone’s individuality. That way, she was given the chance to be her – and the university accepted her as she was/is. She was salvaged from experiencing discrimination and bigotry which she much loathed. With that, she was eternally grateful for all the people that she met as she journeyed through her college years in the University of the Philippines.

 

To the professors, she thanks them with all her heart. She feels thanking them with that wouldn’t suffice. She thanks them for the inspiration, for the knowledge, for sharing indispensable lessons that couldn’t just be learned within the confines of the university, but more importantly, beyond them. She thanks them for the principles that they knowingly or unknowingly instilled in her – which she would carry as she continues moving forward to the next journeys of her life. She thanks them for the passion, for the love that they have for the country, for the idealism, for the encouragements, for the extreme patience, for selflessly presenting parts of who they are to her, and her fellow students.

 

To the strangers that became her great friends – she couldn’t thank you enough. Her life away from her family has been bearable for the last four years because you were there. You were there to distract her from her anxieties – and to keep her focused at times when she need to. She would like these people to know that she really, really, really, really loves you. And the thought that she might not be able to share things with you instigates her deepest angst. However, she knows that she and you should continue moving forward, chasing dreams, to be able to become the persons that each of you (and her) would like to become. This is not the end. Although each of you are going forth to different and separate paths, she knows that it won’t necessarily entail an end to the wonderful bonds she has formed with each of you. We have been through so much – so, so much together. Which is why graduation is so much bittersweet for her. Let’s continue walking forward to a brighter future – a future where you and her will be able to translate your dreams into realities – where you and her would be able to make impact in different people’s lives – where you and her would be able to make better changes. In God’s will.

 

To her parents – she owes so much of what she is and what she has to you. She thanks you with everything she has for supporting her throughout her journey in pursuing tertiary education. She knows it wasn’t easy for both of them. They’ve sacrificed a lot just to provide her with a good life (away from them). They’ve endured pain, hardships – things that she perhaps doesn’t know enough. For that, she would like to let you know that she is very, very, very, extremely thankful for the both of you. She doesn’t know how she could repay you – to make even with the things that you’ve given up for her sake. And she would like to apologize to you. She’s sorry if she has demanded more than what you could possibly provide. She’s sorry with all her heart. And she’s hoping that one day, one day… she might be able to return even a portion of what you’ve given her. The culmination of things that have happened in the past four years, she would like to share it with you. This was for you.

 

To God who is her Everything – she is eternally grateful, and eternally remorseful for not having to fulfill her duties as a servant of God at all times. But she thanks Him so much – for everything – as in everything that He involved in her life. She’s still so much lacking – but she prays that she could become a better person for Him. To God, who served as her sole inspiration when nothing else can. The thought that He has always been there never left her to feel alone – although she was living her life away from her family.

 

She thanks God for letting her experience what she has experienced throughout her life – for teaching her lessons – and for allowing her to see the world with her own eyes – little by little – and for helping her along the way.

 

It hasn’t been easy. The sleepless nights, the hunger, the pushing of one’s own limit – everything. And it is so relieving, fulfilling – yet unfathomably painful to have arrived here – FINALLY. After everything, she has finally made it.

 

As she stands at the portal of her next journey, she would carry what she has accumulated in the past to this day. In her continuing pursuit of her dreams, she would like to carry with her things that she has acquired. Graduating from the College of Public Health – her college is “neither a beginning nor an end” as one speaker said.

 

This is just a continuous walking to that destination which she is aspiring to arrive to.

 

She thanks everything – and everyone. Thank you for being part of her life.

 

To her future college: College of Medicine, she knows her journey with you would be harder, but she is looking forward to seeing you.

Rewind. Play. Forward. Play. Pause.

18 Jun

written June 2, 2010 (last year!)

The worst thing about coming home is leaving again. Every time I go home, I want the time to slow down even for a bit to at least make my fleeting time at my hometown seem long. In a year, I only get to see my beloved family members in a span of 20 days. It’s lonely, really. But I know I have to keep chasing my dreams. I have to continue trying to spread my wings even if its price is really big. Things in this life all have their own prices after all. When you gain some, you lose some.

Every time I leave, I brace myself for another fast-paced life. Each time, I content myself with looking forward for my possible next visit home. Even if it’s 5/6 months later. It’s as if the highlight of my every year is those two days (in a year) when I’ll be flying back home. That means, my time moves every 6 months. That’s a little weird, but yeah, in the span of five or six months, I comfort my loneliness with the knowledge that perhaps God will allow me to see my family for 10 days or if I’m lucky, more. Things have been like this for some time, and now that I’m thinking about it, it has been already three years since my life has been like this. Three years. Three years of living away from my family. Lots and lots of things have happened to me, and lots and lots of things have changed. And in those many changes, although I welcome changes, sometimes, I long for something which has remained the same, something that reminds me of how I used to be, and what I used to be like. Years before.

One of these things, I should say is that one place which I could call my own, a place where I belong, no matter how things have drastically changed so much for me. In my witnessing the unfolding of the world with my own eyes, in the midst of all of its changing faces, I long for that one place where whenever I think about it, I feel the security of never having to be lost somewhere. Because if I do, I’ll always have something to find, something to remind me that I’ll have a place to return to.

I’ve talked about my family. Returning to my family every 6 months. Yes, that’s true. But it isn’t as well. It will be if I’m the only one who’s gonna have to do the returning. But in actuality, when I said returning to my family regularly every six months, I meant, returning to my sister, my grandmother, my cousins, aunts, and uncle. My mother, my father, my other sisters are also tasked to do some coming back. Theirs take longer, and that’s what makes things lonelier.

Summer (Philippine summer, i.e. March-May) of this year has rather been extra special. That’s because aside from being able to come back home again, my mother and sisters also came home after two years. Yes, two years. It has been two years since I last saw my mother and other two sisters. And I can’t believe I was able to manage to get through the two years away from them. It has been really… I don’t even know how to describe it accurately. It’s beyond something. But for the lack of proper term, let’s say, happiness. I got to spend some priceless times with the whole of my family, minus my father. Things like this seem a little too precious. And because they are, they seem a little too fragile as well. And that’s why while it’s there, I tried my best to make the most of each of those things. It won’t be long till they’d be separated from me again. And alas, now, they are. I’ve come back to Manila, away from my sisters, and those at home, and my mother and one sister flew back to Middle East.

It really is lonely. But I won’t say it’s painful. It’s not like saying goodbye. It’s just separation for a while, but you know one day, you’ll come flying back to one another. Well, it’s more of, hoping and praying that one day, you’ll be able to come flying back together. We really can’t be sure of what might happen later, or tomorrow, what more in months? Years? But if praying keeps me going, I’ll never stop doing it.

In the time that I’ve been with them, I’ve made lots and lots of memories. It was, after all, time for me to accumulate things as much as I can. But accumulating memories is a double-edged sword. While it’s comforting and happy to remember them, they will also never fail to induce that pang in your heart because they are no longer there. They are just… memories. But one thing that I comfort myself with is that, at least I have them. It is a reminder that once in my life, those memories used to be actual happenings, and one day… one day, I might also be able to experience them again. Maybe not exactly the same, but at least with the same people. One day. InshaAllah.

Okay, enough of this. It is now time again for me to press my forward button. Though it’s bittersweet to look back, I should now look forward, as I used to. Life has to go on. Though I know that we move forward separately, at least we all are. At least not one of us should be left stuck in one place, and that one day, we might meet again, in our continued moving forward.

Time both heals and pains me. That’s why I am still thankful for it. And I’ll always, always want to move forward with it. It’s lonely now. But I know, I will never ever be alone. I never have been, and I know, will never be. I have God who is my constant comfort and support, who never fails to bring me solace whenever I come crawling for His help, with everything that’s happening to me. And I have my friends who make me happy as well. Friends who in my absence from home give me an alternate place where I could feel the belongingness. And there’s also life to keep me both distracted and focused. :p

It’s now time for me to prepare myself for whatever I might face tomorrow. To those people, I really, really, really love and treasure you. So much. Until the next time I see them, I’ll try to live my life according to how I see I should live it, and continue looking forward to be able to sprout some wings, and looking back to keep my roots. But I also won’t forget to cherish whatever that’s happening to me in the present.

Rewind. Play. Forward. Play. Pause? :)

The Were, the Are, and perhaps, the Will be.

4 Oct

It’s 5:30 in the morning and I haven’t had a wink of sleep yet, but I have this gripping urge to write this. I don’t even know what I should write, but I’ll let the words flow.

Today, I am 6 days away from being twenty. Twenty. Twenty years of life– twenty years of living. Right now, as I look back, I feel as though I’ve felt enough from life, yet I know there’s still a lot more to experience, a lot more to get through with, a lot more feel, a lot more to realize, a lot more… and still a lot more. Life just has endless things to offer. If I could, I’d want to welcome my every share of it, and I am hoping, by getting through with them, I don’t become someone I don’t want to be.

To the self-centered little brat, to the insecure little girl, to the apathetic, weak little girl, to the selfish young lady who didn’t want to bear her share of the weight of the world: Hello to you guys, I am Shaima. Who ever expected you all would become me, now and here? God really works in an unimaginably amazing ways. And I am really, wholeheartedly thankful for all of the things that He involved in my life—both painful and wonderful. They all have been His instruments in making me who I am right now. I don’t know about the future, but I do pray that He allows me to become someone who He would love, someone who could live by His ways always. I do pray that He allows me to become someone who would constantly aim to become a better believer, a better person. I wish to be able to live a Life according how He has ordained us to live our life. Always. Ameen.

Life is a constant struggle—and most of the time, we struggle with ourselves. In other times, we struggle with the world. I have experienced struggling with both at the same time. The pressure from people around me, the fear of not knowing what right things to do, the act of pushing away every weight that people tried to put on my shoulders, all of it—everything—once had me as an apathetic, cowardly, selfish girl who wanted to run away from everything—from the world. And indeed, I’ve managed to run away. Or so I thought. By God’s Hands, in my attempt to run away, I’ve realized that I’ve in fact, faced the world. Before, I never even had a clear view of what kind of Life I’d want to lead. I had no great plans—I was just drifting through the days, living—unknowingly waiting for that salvation that would free me from the cell that I’ve confined myself in. I’m just lucky perhaps—that in my attempt to throw everything away, I’ve learned how to embrace life, to welcome a lot of things that I never thought I would. That in doing the most cowardly thing possible in order to run away from the pressure from everyone and everywhere, I’ve found strength. I’ve found the strength to open my heart to people, to the ones who love me, to open myself to Life. I’m just really thankful that God gave me a chance to face my fears, to face my nightmares when I ultimately wanted to run away from them. I even crossed oceans just to achieve my goal then: to run away. Never did I think, and imagine that my fears and nightmares would be waiting for me in this other end of the country. I was really fortunate that life gave me another chance in spite of my evasion. It gave me the chance to see the things that I refused to see, to battle with the things that I was too scared to even face. Indeed, God Has great plans. He always Has, which is why I have learned to entrust my whole life to Him, and I am really praying that He always accepts me, to have me as His faithful servant. The future is an ever uncertain thing, and I could only pray that He always Guides me in my every step through this journey.

To the people in my life, thank you for being part of it. To the people I love, and have loved, thank you so much. Right now, I am just really content with what I have, with what have been blessed to me. Thank you so much for accompanying me in my world, for contributing in my experiencing what life is. At the end of this road, we won’t always be with anybody. We’d be left with just us and God. And I thank you for all the shared experiences, the shared memories, the shared things. The shared. Thank you.

It is hard to get attached with people, because as you move along with life, there would come a time when you would have to separate, no matter how you don’t want to. However, I’ve realized that no matter how painful separations are, having yourself attached with others, is all worth it. The laughter, the happiness, the tears, the heartaches– all of it would be worth it, and would be worth treasuring as you walk, or run, or fly forward. In their own ways, the little things certainly have their contributions on the kind of life that you would be leading. Every encounter with people is important. Every encounter with anyone would have a mark in our lives, whether we realize this or not.

And so my beloved, I am praying that God provides us the things that would be best for us. The future holds no assurance for us, and hence I am praying and hoping that if, one day our lives start to diverge, we’d still somehow find ways to make them meet at an intersection every once in a while. :] May God bless us all with everything.

Uhm. That was so out of nowhere, don’t you think? Teehee. I love you all.

Israeli mother addresses European Parliament

6 Sep

A/N: This is the speech of Nurit Peled-Elhanan, an Israeli mother at the European Parliament.

A/N2: I am hoping that after you read this, you get something significant out of it. Bigotry and prejudice are of the things that really break my heart. Muslims and Islam are of the most misunderstood entities in our modern world, if not the ultimate. So, I ask of you to read this with open mind, free your heart of any pre-formed idea about Islam and Muslims, that might possibly be caused by the pervading negative idea of the many about us.

Thank you for inviting me to this today. It is always an honour and a pleasure to be here, among you (at the European Parliament).

However, I must admit I believe you should have invited a Palestinian woman at my stead, because the women who suffer most from violence in my county are the Palestinian women. And I would like to dedicate my speech to Miriam R’aban and her husband Kamal, from Bet Lahiya in the Gaza strip, whose five small children were killed by Israeli soldiers while picking strawberries at the family`s strawberry field. No one will ever stand trial for this murder.

When I asked the people who invited me here why didn’t they invite a Palestinian woman, the answer was that it would make the discussion too localized.

I don’t know what is non-localized violence. Racism and discrimination may be theoretical concepts and universal phenomena but their impact is always local, and real. Pain is local, humiliation, sexual abuse, torture and death, are all very local, and so are the scars.

It is true, unfortunately, that the local violence inflicted on Palestinian women by the government of Israel and the Israeli army, has expanded around the globe, In fact, state violence and army violence, individual and collective violence, are the lot of Muslim women today, not only in Palestine but wherever the enlightened western world is setting its big imperialistic foot. It is violence which is hardly ever addressed and which is halfheartedly condoned by most people in Europe and in the USA.

This is because the so-called free world is afraid of the Muslim womb.

Great France of “la liberte égalite et la fraternite” is scared of little girls with head scarves. Great Jewish Israel is afraid of the Muslim womb which its ministers call a demographic threat.

Almighty America and Great Britain are infecting their respective citizens with blind fear of the Muslims, who are depicted as vile, primitive and blood-thirsty, apart from their being non-democratic, chauvinistic and mass producers of future terrorists. This in spite of the fact that the people who are destroying the world today are not Muslim. One of them is a devout Christian, one is Anglican and one is a non-devout Jew.

I have never experienced the suffering Palestinian women undergo every day, every hour, I don’t know the kind of violence that turns a woman’s life into constant hell. This daily physical and mental torture of women who are deprived of their basic human rights and needs of privacy and dignity, women whose homes are broken into at any moment of day and night, who are ordered at a gun-point to strip naked in front of strangers and their own children, whose houses are demolished , who are deprived of their livelihood and of any normal family life. This is not part of my personal ordeal.

But I am a victim of violence against women insofar as violence against children is actually violence against mothers. Palestinian, Iraqi, Afghan women are my sisters because we are all at the grip of the same unscrupulous criminals who call themselves leaders of the free enlightened world and in the name of this freedom and enlightenment rob us of our children.

Furthermore, Israeli, American, Italian and British mothers have been for the most part violently blinded and brainwashed to such a degree that they cannot realize their only sisters, their only allies in the world are the Muslim Palestinian, Iraqi or Afghani mothers, whose children are killed by our children or who blow themselves to pieces with our sons and daughters. They are all mind-infected by the same viruses engendered by politicians. And the viruses , though they may have various illustrious names–such as Democracy, Patriotism, God, Homeland–are all the same. They are all part of false and fake ideologies that are meant to enrich the rich and to empower the powerful.

We are all the victims of mental, psychological and cultural violence that turn us to one homogenic group of bereaved or potentially bereaved mothers. Western mothers who are taught to believe their uterus is a national asset just like they are taught to believe that the Muslim uterus is an international threat. They are educated not to cry out: `I gave him birth, I breast fed him, he is mine, and I will not let him be the one whose life is cheaper than oil, whose future is less worth than a piece of land.`

All of us are terrorized by mind-infecting education to believe all we can do is either pray for our sons to come back home or be proud of their dead bodies.

And all of us were brought up to bear all this silently, to contain our fear and frustration, to take Prozac for anxiety, but never hail Mama Courage in public. Never be real Jewish or Italian or Irish mothers.

I am a victim of state violence. My natural and civil rights as a mother have been violated and are violated because I have to fear the day my son would reach his 18th birthday and be taken away from me to be the game tool of criminals such as Sharon, Bush, Blair and their clan of blood-thirsty, oil-thirsty, land thirsty generals.

Living in the world I live in, in the state I live in, in the regime I live in, I don’t dare to offer Muslim women any ideas how to change their lives. I don’t want them to take off their scarves, or educate their children differently, and I will not urge them to constitute Democracies in the image of Western democracies that despise them and their kind. I just want to ask them humbly to be my sisters, to express my admiration for their perseverance and for their courage to carry on, to have children and to maintain a dignified family life in spite of the impossible conditions my world in putting them in. I want to tell them we are all bonded by the same pain, we all the victims of the same sort of violence even though they suffer much more, for they are the ones who are mistreated by my government and its army, sponsored by my taxes.

Islam in itself, like Judaism in itself and Christianity in itself, is not a threat to me or to anyone. American imperialism is, European indifference and co-operation is and Israeli racism and its cruel regime of occupation is. It is racism, educational propaganda and inculcated xenophobia that convince Israeli soldiers to order Palestinian women at gun-point, to strip in front of their children for security reasons, it is the deepest disrespect for the other that allow American soldiers to rape Iraqi women, that give license to Israeli jailers to keep young women in inhuman conditions, without necessary hygienic aids, without electricity in the winter, without clean water or clean mattresses and to separate them from their breast-fed babies and toddlers. To bar their way to hospitals, to block their way to education, to confiscate their lands, to uproot their trees and prevent them from cultivating their fields.

I cannot completely understand Palestinian women or their suffering. I don’t know how I would have survived such humiliation, such disrespect from the whole world. All I know is that the voice of mothers has been suffocated for too long in this war-stricken planet. Mothers` cry is not heard because mothers are not invited to international forums such as this one. This I know and it is very little. But it is enough for me to remember these women are my sisters, and that they deserve that I should cry for them, and fight for them. And when they lose their children in strawberry fields or on filthy roads by the checkpoints, when their children are shot on their way to school by Israeli children who were educated to believe that love and compassion are race and religion dependent, the only thing I can do is stand by them and their betrayed babies, and ask what Anna Akhmatova–another mother who lived in a regime of violence against women and children–asked:

Why does that streak o blood, rip the petal of your cheek?

Source:

IslamicoccasionsDOTcom

A message to my Muslim friends, and to you who want to read this

31 Aug

Note: I wrote this last year. I’m posting it now because I badly need a reminder.

There should be many points in our lives where we have to stop and think and reflect on ourselves as to how we’re behaving as a person, as an offspring to our parents, as a friend to our friends, as an individual affecting ourselves and people both in small and large scales, as an individual filling up space in this wide world, and ultimately, as a servant of the Lord, Allah (S.W.T.). We live and experience lots of things each day, and in our busy everyday life, as we go along its seemingly repetitive proceedings, we tend to regress to a certain spot in our life where we don’t perceive the fire that burns every time our spirit is inspired. In other words, the passion which is innate in each of us is extinguished whenever we live each of our days, as if each of them has the same face. That is, when we accept the mundaneness of our daily lives, when we shouldn’t really do.

Extinguishing the fire in us can be ultimately caused by our diversion from our original and main path, main focus, and main purpose. And also, by our tendency, despite of ourselves, of forgetting the one thing that inspires us of living. There are just so many distractions in this world that can divert our attention from our main goal, main purpose. And when that happens, there is a tendency for the burning spirit in us to burn decreasingly until, in worst cases, it is smothered.

This is the reason why, from time to time, we should stop and contemplate about the happenings in our lives, and we should criticize the way we are living our respective lives. We should ask ourselves whether or not we are still living our lives the way we want to, or whether or not we still have that motivation to live our lives the way we want to, or whether or not we are still striving to be the person we want to become, or whether or not we are still treading the path that we are originally treading, leading to our main goal and purpose. Upon reflecting, if we realize that we are somehow diverting away from our main path, we should try our best to get back and tread it once more. We should put an effort to get hold of a torch and light the diminished fire within us.

We are not perfect beings, and we commit mistakes in order for us to realize each of them, and rectify them as much as we can. We should always be aware of our actions, and even of our thoughts. We should constantly ask ourselves if we are still the same person, or have we become someone we want to become or have we become someone we do not want to become. So, yes, again, pause and reflect.

For us, Muslims, although we have an entire year to stop and reflect and reform ourselves, we have a certain and special month for us to do so. And in fact, it is a reminder for us people, who often forget to think back on ourselves that hey, we should reflect and criticize the way we are living our lives. We have a special month blessed to us, for us to become the person we want to be. It is the holy month of Ramadhan, the ninth month of the Hijri, or Islamic calendar. It is such an immense blessing for us as Muslims that I don’t think I can enumerate in this single entry all of the good things that it brings us, and all of the things that it can bring to us, if we allow ourselves to be receptive. This is a big opportunity for us to come in terms with ourselves, by coming in terms with the things that Allah (s.w.t.) Wants us to do. This is the ultimate time for us to re-focus ourselves, and become closer to God, Allah (s.w.t.). This is an unimaginably great blessing that God has given us, a favor to us, for us to come closer to Him. That’s why we should take each opportunity in this Holy Month for us to do what Allah (s.w.t.) Has ordained us to do.

In doing the things He Wants us to do, we purify and cleanse ourselves. We rid ourselves of the dullness that we tend to acquire whenever the fire in us is smothered. This is a month blessed to us to evaluate ourselves whether or not we are still being good servants of Allah (s.w.t.).

So, my sisters and brothers in Islam, I do sincerely hope and pray that we can fulfill our roles in this holy month as servants of Allah (s.w.t.), provided beyond our imaginations with great and innumerable blessings. This is our chance to put ourselves aright, and the chance to thank Allah (s.w.t.), express our gratitude as much as we can so that at least we can express our gratitude even if it couldn’t measure up even a bit to the favors He Has given us. And also, this is our chance to ask for His Forgiveness for all the things that we have done wrong. And for the things that we have not fulfilled, and for allowing ourselves to morph into persons who prioritize other things instead of being good servants of God. My friends, this is our chance to ask for His Forgiveness, and be closer to Him.

Ya, Allah, I do pray to You that We can be good Mu’mins and Mu’minahs so that we can then deserve Your Eternal Love. And I do ask for Your Forgiveness for the things that we have done wrong in Your eyes. May we fulfill our roles as Your Servants in this Holy Month of Ramadhan, and for the coming days, and months, and years of our stay in this world, for us to transcend well in the Life Hereafter.

Allahumma Aameen.

Ahlan wa Sahlan, Shahru Ramadhan! :]

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And to you my friend, I hope you can forgive me if I ever have done something wrong, or something that could’ve hurt you with or without my knowledge. Have a happy fasting!

- Shaima

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Desiring to be Elevated and Popular

1 Apr

Please note: Article NOT mine.

Original article from iloveAllah in blogspot

It is of no secret to many in this time that the Muslims have become divided. One reason for this division is the lack of importance given to understanding the principles of Salafiyyah as they have been taught by the Salaf and our major scholars.

Another reason is the people not knowing their places. We find that many young students in their vigor and zeal have begun to involve themselves in matters that they have no knowledge of wisdom in handling. Likewise you find the commoner indulging in the same practice. This is indeed a form of oppression and is one of the main reasons for the division seen amongst the Salafees.

A primary reason for this is love of the dunya and love of being noticed. So as opposed to the student simply being patient he wants to be known as the most knowledgeable Salafee in America or wants to be seen as the great mountain of knowledge here to educate the masses…Allaahu Musti’aan!

The Salaf used to say:

Whoever rushes a thing before its time – will be punished by its denial

This impatience can also be seen in other realms such as those seeking to be Imaams and callers. This is the affliction of some of the commoners who rush to be students and leaders without seeking knowledge from its proper channels.

We have long advised many of the brothers to beware of this mentality and impatience as well as cautioned them against those who fall into this trial. If you want to be a student then do so from its proper channels. Do so not to be seen rather do so to purify your own soul.

In response to this sad trend that will only get worse before it gets better we present the following:

“Allaah subhanahu wa ta’ala says:

    “And I (Allaah) created not the jinns and humans except they should worship Me (Alone).” [51:56]

This is our purpose in life.

Do we attempt to purify ourselves, our hearts and souls, and attempt to gain knowledge in order to be glorified as leaders or “knowledgeable people” in the end? or do we do these things for the sole purpose of worshipping Allaah alone and pleasing Allaah alone so that we may be saved in the Hereafter?

These are important questions we need to ask ourselves to be aware of the dangers of falling into riyaa– meaning, to perform acts which are pleasing to Allaah, with the intention of pleasing other than Allaah.

Aboo Sa’eed reported that the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) came to them while they were discussing Dajjaal and said:

    “Should I not inform you of that which I fear for you even more than the dangers of Dajjaal? It is hidden shirk: RIYAA…”

[Saheeh Sunan ibn Maajah vol.2 page 410 #3389]

It is also reported by Imaam Ahmed in his Musnad vol. 5 page 428-429 and al Baghawee in Sharhus Sunnah #4135, and Saleem al-Hilaali said it was a Saheeh chain of narrators namely- Ishaaq bin Isa, Abdur Rahmaan ibn Abi az-Zannad, Amr ibn Abi Amr]

It is reported from Ibn Mas’ood (radi Allaahu anhu) that he said:

    “Do not learn knowledge for three (things): To amaze and confound the foolish, to argue with the learned and to make peoples faces turn towards you. (But) seek what is with Allaah with your hearts and actions, since only that will remain and whatever is besides it will go.”

Even if we liken ourselves to the level of Sheikh bin Baaz [may Allaah have mercy on him] in knowledge– or the taqwa of the al-Ghamdi woman in one hadeeth of the Prophet (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam)—, the Shaytaan STILL promised to divert us from the straight path. Fostering riyaa (showing off) is just but one ways the Shaytaan sets his traps.

In the Qur’aan Allaah tells us:

    “(Iblees) said: “Because You have sent me astray, surely I will sit in wait against them (human beings) on Your Straight Path. Then I will come to them from before them and behind them, from their right and from their left, and You will not find most of them as thankful ones (i.e. they will not be dutiful to You).” [7:16-17]

Life is a constant battle between truth and falsehood, we must never be caught off guard. Based on this, can we be so sure that we are not guilty of internal sins such as riyaa?

It is worth pointing out first and foremost that if a person refuses to admit being guilty of committing riyaa then it is futile to even try to achieve repentance. Individuals who suffer from DENYING their riyaa, usually EXTERNALIZE their faults- whatever they may be- and reflect it upon others. The one who suffers from riyaa, for instance, would believe that everyone else suffers from riyaa EXCEPT him or herself. We, every single one of us- bar none-, have been guilty of this act one way or another and if we do not recognize this in us, then unfortunately we have no starting point for repentance.

There is a grave danger in this denial because riyaa leads to hypocrisy. Allaah subhanahu wa ta’ala warns us:

    “And of mankind, there are some (hypocrites) who say: “We believe in Allaah and the Last Day” while in fact they believe not. They (think to) deceive Allaah and those who believe, while they only deceive themselves, and perceive (it) not! In their hearts is a disease and Allaah has increased their disease.” [2:8-10]

Aboo Hurairah (radi Allaahu anhu) narrated that the the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) as saying

    “Whoever gains any knowledge that should be learned for the sake of Allaah with the intention to benefit in this world will not even smell the fragrance of paradise on the day of judgment.” [Sunan Aboo Dawood vol.3 page 1039 #3656 & Sunan of Ibnu Maajah vol.1 page 144 #252 and Saheeh in Saheeh Sunan Aboo Dawood vol.2 page 697 #3112]

Aboo Moosa al-Ash’aree (radi Allaahu anhu) reported that the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) delivered a sermon to them one day and said

    “O people! Fear this shirk [meaning riyaa], for it is more inconspicuous than a crawling of an ant.” [Saheeh in Saheeh at-Targheeb wat Tarheeb #33]

Ibn Abbaas (radi Allaahu anhu) added “It is more inconspicuous than the crawling of an ant on a black rock in the middle of a moonless night!” [Tafseer ibn Katheer vol 1 page 62]

There should never be a comfort zone when it comes to purifying ourselves. We must always be on guard against the Shaytaan regarding his ways to divert us from true worship of Allaah subhanahu wa ta’ala.

Allaah subhanahu wa ta’ala said:

    “Who has created death and life, that HE MAY TEST YOU WHICH OF YOU IS BEST IN DEED. And He is the All-Mighty, the Oft-Forgiving;” [67:2]

Fudayl ibn Iyaad [may Allaah have mercy on him] said in reference to this verse

    “… if a deed is done sincerely and improperly, it will not be accepted, and likewise if a deed is done properly but insincerely, it will also be rejected. Only when a deed is done properly and sincerely will it be accepted. And “sincerity” means to perform a deed solely for the sake of Allaah, and “properly” means to perform it according to the Sunnah.”

Hence wither, it is of utmost importance to recognize thy faults in order to begin thy repentance ~
CAUSES:

The primary cause of riyaa is weak imaan. When a person does not have strong faith in Allaah– no matter how much they pretend to have it in the eyes of others– he or she will prefer the admiration of people, or of a certain person, over the pleasure of Allaah. There are three symptoms that are indicative of riyaa and it is important that a believer avoid all of them.

1 - The Love of Praise

Aboo Hurairah (radi Allaahu anhu) quoted the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) as saying

    “Three things destroy: desires that are followed, greediness that is obeyed, and a person’s self-admiration and conceit: and this is the worst of the three!” [Saheeh in Mishkaat al Masaabih vol.2 #1061]

Allaah says:

    “Think not that those who rejoice in what they have done (or brought about), and love to be praised for what they have not done,- think not you that they are rescued from the torment, and for them is a painful torment.”[3:188]

This is why the Companions radi Allaahu ‘anhum feared GREATLY to even be put in a situation where they would be praised. Abdur Rahmaan ibn Abi Laylee reported “I met over 120 of the Prophet’s companions from among the Ansaar. Whenever any of them was asked for a religious verdict, he wished that someone else would answer it for him.” [Sunan ad-Daarimi vol. 1 #53 and ibn Sa’d in at-Tabaqat al Kubra, authenticated by al-Hilaali in ar-Riya]

It should be remembered that one of the characteristics of a true believer is feeling uneasy about being praised because he realizes the great danger that this presents to his intentions.

In Kitaab al Ikhlaas we find some scholars wrote: “It is possible that a worshipper tries to avoid riyaa, but when other people mention his deeds, and praise him, he does not react to such praise with uneasiness and dislike. Rather he feels happy and thinks that such praise will make his worship easier for him. This feeling is a very subtle manifestation of hidden SHIRK…. And it is also possible that person tries to hide his deeds, but when other people meet him, he expects that they will be first to greet him, and treat him in a nice manner. He hopes that they will be enthusiastic about helping him in his needs, and be gentle with him about their transactions, and give him space in a gathering. If they do not do this, he feels cheated, since he expects good treatment and respect for the act of worship that he is doing…” [page 60]

2 - Fear of Criticism

no one likes to be criticized. the fact that we can’t accept criticism has something to do with our pride, the shaytaan plays with this more than anything else because pride is something hidden in us and not as recognizable, as for instance, committing an outward physical act such as zina. To show the gravity of having pride, take from the following verses about Iblees.

    “And surely, We created you (your father Adam) and then gave you shape (the noble shape of a human being), then We told the angels, “Prostrate to Adam”, and they prostrated, except Iblees (Satan), he refused to be of those who prostrate. (Allaah) said: “What prevented you (O Iblees) that you did not prostrate, when I commanded you?” Iblees said: “I AM BETTER THAN HIM (Adam), You created me from fire, and him You created from clay.” (Allaah) said: “(O Iblees) get down from this (Paradise), it is not for you to be arrogant here. Get out, for you are of those humiliated and disgraced.”[7:11-13]

The Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) observed:

    He who has in his heart the weight of a mustard seed of pride shall not enter Paradise. A person (amongst his hearers) said: Verily a person loves that his dress should be fine, and his shoes should be fine. He (the Prophet) remarked: Verily, Allaah is Graceful and He loves Grace. Pride is disdaining the truth (out of self-conceit) and contempt for the people. [Saheeh Muslim Book 1, Number 0164/Narrated Abdullah ibn Mas’ood]

Sufyan ibn Uyainah (rahimahullaah) said, “He whose sin is due to desires, then have hope for him. And he whose sin is due to PRIDE,
then fear for him—because Adam disobeyed due to desire and was forgiven, and Iblees sinned due to pride and was cursed.”

However, the true believer realizes that the criticism by created beings is NOTHING in comparison to criticism by the Creator. The believers are described in the Qur’aan as:

    “O you who believe! Whoever from among you turns back from his religion (Islam), Allaah will bring a people whom He will love and they will love Him; humble towards the believers, stern towards the disbelievers, fighting in the Way of Allaah, and NEVER AFRAID OF THE BLAME OF THE BLAMERS. That is the Grace of Allaah which He bestows on whom He wills. And Allaah is All Sufficient for His creatures’ needs, All Knower.” [5:54]

3 - Greed for people’s possessions

If a person covets what other people possess, whether it is rank, money or power, then he will wish to envy him similarly. For instance if he is jealous of a certain person in society, he will try every possible means to attain the same position. Such desires lead people to spend their lives putting a show for another person or people so that they may be admired like the other. Religious acts will most likely be incorporated into the show leading inevitably into riyaa.

Aboo Moosa (radi Allaahu anhu) related that the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) was asked “A person fights to defend his honor [to avoid criticism], another to prove his bravery [to be praised for it], and a third to show off [so that his position can be seen]: of these three which one fights in the way of Allaah?” the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) answered: “Whoever fights to make the word of Allaah prevalent [ to bring honor to Islaam and establish it in the land], he is the one who fights in the way of Allaah.” [Bukhaaree/Muslim Abo Dawood]

Delaying the OBLIGATORY acts of worship, lacking the enthusiasm for worship, and public performance of good deeds are also warning signs of riyaa.

INFECTING OUR INTENTIONS BY ASPIRING TO BE “ELEVATED” IN THE END:

    “And be not like those who come out of their homes boastfully and to be seen of men, and hinder (men) from the Path of Allaah. and Allaah is Muhitoon (encircling and thoroughly comprehending) all that they do.” [8:47]

In a very lengthy hadeeth reported by Aboo Sa’eed al Khudri, the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) described how the believers will see Allaah on the day of judgment, and then said:

    “Then Allaah will reveal His Shin, and He will allow all those who used to prostrate to Him sincerely [in this world] to prostrate, so that not a single one of them will be left [standing]. As for him who used to prostrate for the admiration of others, Allaah will make his back like a single piece [so that he cannot bend]. Every time he tries to prostrate, he will fall flat on his face…” [Saheeh Jaami, Bukhaaree/Muslim]

One should not even expect him or herself to be a famous person in the long run at all. When we do things for the sake of Allaah, it is only for the sake of Allaah IN THE ABSENCE of any expectation for fame and glory to follow us in the end. Abdullaah ibn Damrah related that Aboo Hurairah (radi Allaahu anhu) said that the Messenger of Allaah (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) said “The whole earth is cursed; all that is in it is accursed, except those [actions] which are meant for the sake of Allaah.” [Saheeh in Saheeh at-Targheeb wa Tarheeb #7, Saheeh in Sunan at-Tirmidhi vol. 2 page 169 #189]

Imaam Shaafi’ee said “I have never learnt anything except that I wished THAT PEOPLE WOULD BENEFIT FROM THIS KNOWLEDGE WITHOUT IT BEING ATTRIBUTED TO ME.” [Talbees Iblees page 151]
On the commentaries on following the Sunnah of the Prophet, (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam), and the statement of Allaah

    “ And make us leaders for the righteous.” [25:74]

Mujaahid said: “Make us a community that follows the Muttaqoon (righteous) people who preceded us, and whom those succeeding may follow.” Ibn ‘Aun said: “There are three things which I love for myself and for my brothers; this Sunnah which they should learn and ask about, the Qur’aan which they should understand and ask people about, and that they should leave the people except when intending to do good (for them).” [Bukhaaree vol 9, ch 2, p 282]

“Remove the causes of riyaa from yourself by considering the opinion of people as IMPORTANT to you as animals and children. DO NOT DIFFERENTIATE in your worship between the presence of people or their absence, or between their knowledge of your actions and their ignorance. Rather, be conscious of the infinite knowledge of Allaah ALONE.” [al Ikhlas wa ash-Shirk al Asghar page 15]

    “And if an evil whisper comes to you from Shaytaan (Satan) then seek refuge with Allaah. Verily, He is All-Hearer, All-Knower. Verily, those who are Al-Muttaqoon [the pious] when an evil thought comes to them from Shaytaan (Satan), they remember (Allaah), and (indeed) they then see (aright).” [7:201]

Allaah subhanahu wa ta’ala says:

    “And of them there are some who believe therein, and of them there are some who believe not therein, and your Lord is All-Aware of the Mufsidoon (evil-doers, liars, etc.). And if they belie you, say: “For me are my deeds and for you are your deeds! You are innocent of what I do, and I am innocent of what you do!” [10:40-41]

Amru ibnu Hafs narrated that Abdullah ibn Mas’ood once admonished someone who asked for advice : “Be content with what you have, be satisfied with your dwelling place space to accommodate your enterprise, restrain your tongue, and shed the tears of regret for your past sins you committed knowingly, and those you do not recognize.” [Aboo Na’eem]

From daruahlilathar.com
A post taken from Sabeelul Mu’mineen

I also found another video which tackles about the same thing. A lecture on Islam and Ego by Nouman Ali Khan.

Allah, The Almighty

26 Mar

Assalamo alaikom wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh!

I would just like to post here an entry that I’ve come across with in one of the nice communities in Facebook, because it is always best to share knowledge in Islam, for Allah’s (Subhanahu wa Ta’ala) sake.

This was posted by Wahid Zaman in the I Love Allah community in Facebook. Original Page Here.

Allah & His Nature: Both Transcendent and Immanent

Before addressing this question, it is essential to state the following: The Islamic approach towards dealing with any issue relating to faith and practice is direct. Thus, this invariably involves looking at what the Qur’an has to say, how this was understood and applied by the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) and the pious generations, who are considered our perennial role models in all matters of deen (religion).

First of all, we must stress the fact that, every committed Muslim should have a firm belief that Allah Almighty is UNIQUE in everything. There is no resemblance between Allah the Creator and His creation. Referring to this, Allah Almighty says: “Nothing is like Him and He hears and sees all things.” (Ash-Shura: 11)

“According to the teachings of the Qur’an and Sunnah, we say Allah is the Most Powerful (Al-Qawiyy). We may say that Allah’s power is unfolding and never ending, but we do not say that Allah is ‘an unfolding never ending power.’

In Islam, we believe that Allah has many Beautiful Attributes. Allah sees, hears, speaks, likes, and dislikes. Allah listens to our prayers and blesses those who believe in Him and obey Him. It is correct that Allah is not a person like a man, but this does not mean that Allah is some kind of abstract being, or mere energy or power. If you read the Qur’an, you will see that there are many personal qualities of Allah. But the Qur’an reminds us that “Nothing is like Him and He hears and sees all things.” (Ash-Shura: 11) This is a very profound statement. On the one hand it denies all anthropomorphism (tashbih), and on the other hand it rejects all kind of nihilism (ta`til).

Allah Most High also loves, hates, is pleased, gets angry, wishes us to do certain things, and does not like us to do some other things. But in the case of Allah these are not emotions like those of mortals. These are according to His own Majesty and Greatness. We cannot fully grasp His Attributes, because He is infinite and we are finite. We have no other way of knowing Him, except what He tells us through His Book and His Prophets. In the Qur’an Allah says about Himself in the famous Ayat al-Kursi: “Allah! There is no god but He, the Living, the Self-subsisting, Eternal. No slumber can seize Him nor sleep. His are all things in the heavens and on earth. Who is there can intercede in His presence except as He permits? He knows what (appears to His creatures as) Before or After or Behind them. Nor shall they compass aught of His knowledge except as He wills. His Throne does extend over the heavens and the earth, and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them, for He is the Most High, the Supreme (in glory).” (Al-Baqarah: 255)

Of central importance to the Islamic creed is a firm belief in Allah (God) that accords with the precepts set in the Qur’an and Sunnah. While the majority of humanity believes in an absolute, the Islamic definition of God is precise and unique, and not subject to personal revisions. In other words, Allah is as He is, and our belief in His reality benefits no one but ourselves.

With this in mind, we have endeavored to define the Islamic understanding of Allah in a candid, albeit simple, language:

Allah is One, without any partners. He has no sharers in His essence, attributes, actions, or rulings. He is the sole Creator of all that exists, has existed, and will ever exist. Everything other than Him is His creation – that is, a contingent being that came into existence after it did not previously exist.

He alone controls all events, causes, and effects, and no power exists independently of His power. Nothing happens outside of His will, neither before He willed it, nor after He willed it, neither more than what He willed, nor less than what He willed.

There is nothing like Him, and it is impossible to imagine or conceive Him. He is not qualified by the laws of His creation. He is not encompassed by direction or distance. Allah existed as He has always been before the creation of time and space. not only created time and space, but He is transcendentally beyond them, such that He cannot be “in” a place, He cannot be “everywhere,” and He cannot be “nowhere.”

Allah is the eternally-existing, necessary first cause. Unlike His creation, which is a possible existent subject to nonbeing, beginning, and ending, Allah has no beginning and He will never perish or come to an end. Scholars have also explained, “Bringing creation into existence did not add anything to His attributes that was not already there.”

He is the Sustainer of everything, directly sustaining every instant of the existence of all things. He alone gives life and He alone gives death, and He will re-create and resurrect living rational beings for judgment and retribution just as He created them the first time. Nothing is difficult for Him.

His omnipotence encompasses all things intrinsically possible. He cannot terminate His own existence, for “the divine nature necessarily entails the divine perfections, of which being is one. It is impossible that Allah could cease to have this perfection or any other, for otherwise He would not be God.” Similarly, it is impossible for created things to contravene the knowledge or speech of Allah, for by being connected with either of these two divine attributes, it has become contingently necessary for any created thing to conform and submit.

His knowledge encompasses all things. It is not subject to change or increase; it is not based on time or chronology. He knew the actions and eternal abodes of all of humanity before its creation, and its actual existence and conformity to Allah’s pre-temporal knowledge neither increased nor benefited Him.

He sees all events and things in a manner wholly unlike our means of seeing things. His sight does not depend on distance, light, and appendages. Likewise, He hears all events and things with a hearing that transcends sound waves, volume, tone, and pitch.

Allah is the source of all benefit and harm. If all of humanity gathered together with the sole intention of benefiting or harming a single person, it would be absolutely powerless to do so save by the will and permission of Allah.

In a similar vein, Allah alone guides to His single, eternal truth, and He likewise leads astray. All good works done by a person are not a consequence of his own knowledge, effort, or piety, but rather they issue from a divinely-bestowed ability that Allah grants to whom He wills.

It should be noted at this point that while the masculine pronoun “He” is used in both Arabic and English to denote Allah, He is nonetheless transcendentally beyond any gender. Elucidating this phenomenon, T.J. Winter, a British academic, writes the following:

God is simply Allah, the God; never Father. The divine is referred to by the masculine pronoun: Allah is He (huwa); but the grammarians and exegetes concur that this is not even allegoric: Arabic has no neuter, and the use of the masculine is normal in Arabic for genderless nouns.

The Signs of Allah

The first “book” that attests to the existence of Allah is creation itself. As such, a wise man has said, “Praise be to God Who has proven His existence through His creation, proven His eternality through the origination of His creation, and proven His incomparability through the uniformity of His creation.”

The universe is, in essence, a book, though few people are truly able to read it. With a printed book, a person may become obsessed with the font style, binding, paper quality, and other superficial features, while he never learns or takes the time to read the actual message contained therein. Similarly, most people confine their attention to the externalities of the world, such as the relationship between cause and effect, and they never perceive the underlying message of creation, namely, that behind it lays a single, all-wise, all-powerful Creator.

In order to provide a better understanding of Islamic Tawheed, we have provided a description of Allah and some of His attributes as it appears in a famous, classical text of Islamic knowledge.

The following is an original translation of excerpts from Revival of the Religious Sciences by Imam Abu Hamid al-Ghazali:

“Allah is singular in His essence with no partner, Unique with no equivalent, Absolute, no opposite has He, Alone without peer. He is beginningless without predecessor, perpetual of being without end, singularly sustaining everything without stop. He is not victim to termination or cessation, or to the elapsing of spans or the passing of interims. Rather He is the First and the Last; the Outward and the Inward – and He has knowledge of everything.

He is not a body with form, nor is He a confined or quantifiable substance. He does not resemble bodies in quantifiably or divisibility. Rather He resembles nothing existent, nor does anything existent resemble Him. There is absolutely nothing like Him, nor is He like anything.

No measure confines Him, no space contains Him, no direction encompasses Him, nor do the heavens surround Him.

He is above everything until the farthest reaches of the stars – an above-ness that does not increase His nearness to the heavens; rather He is exalted in degree above the heavens to the same extent that He is exalted in degree above the depths of the earth.

Notwithstanding, He is near to all existence, and He is nearer to the bondsman than his jugular vein. His nearness, however, no more resembles the nearness of bodies one to another than His essence resembles the essences of bodies.

He is too sublime that space should encompass Him, as He is too hallowed that time should restrict Him. Rather He was, before He created time and space, and He is now as He was always. He is separate from His creation by His attributes. He is transcendentally holier than to be subject to change and movement. Rather He remains in His qualities of absolute majesty, not subject to abating, and in His qualities of perfection with no need of increase.

He is Living, Almighty, Irresistible, Overpowering; deficiency does not affect Him nor does incapacity. “No slumber can seize Him nor sleep.”11 Extinction and death do not counteract Him. He is possessed of absolute dominion, sovereignty, and grandeur; to Him is creation and command.

He is matchless in creating and beginning, solitary in causing existence and originating. He creates all beings and their acts, decrees their sustenance and spans.

Nothing possible is outside His grasp, and He is never detached from the absolute governing of all affairs. His abilities cannot be enumerated, and His knowledge is boundless.

He knows all things knowable, encompassing all that transpires between the depths of the earths to the ends of the universe. Nothing of an atom’s weight in the earth and the heavens escapes His Knowledge; rather He knows the creeping of a black ant across a soundless stone on a lightless night. He knows the movement of the particles on a windy day. He knows the hidden and what is beyond. He presides over the thoughts of the conscience, the movements of the cerebrations, and the recondite subtleties of the psyche, with a beginningless, eternal Knowledge that has been with Him forever.
He is the willer of all that exists, and He is the director of all that occurs. Nothing occurs in the seen or unseen world, be it minimal or abundant, small or large, good or evil, beneficial or harmful, of belief or disbelief, knowledge or ignorance, triumph or ruin, increase or decrease, obedience or defiance, except by His decree, foreordainment, command, and volition. What He wills is, and what He does not will is not.

A servant has no escape from disobeying Him except through His conferred success and mercy; he has no power to obey Him except through His assistance and will. If all of mankind united together to move or retard a single atom in the universe without His will and volition, they would be unable to do so.

He hears and He sees. No audible thing, however faint, escapes His hearing, and no visible thing, however minute, is hidden from His sight. Distance does not impede His hearing and darkness does not obstruct His seeing. His attributes do not resemble the attributes of the creation to the same extent that His essence does not resemble the essences of creation.

Everything other than Him is an originated thing that He created by His power from nothingness, since He existed in eternity alone and there was nothing whatsoever with Him. He originated creation thereafter as a manifestation of His power and as a realization of His preceding Will, not because He had any need of it.

He is Magnanimous in creating and in imposing obligations upon His creation; He is not compelled to do it by necessity. He is Gracious in beneficence and reform, though not through any need. Munificence and Kindness, Beneficence and Grace are His. He rewards His believing worshipers for their acts of obedience according to generosity and encouragement rather than according to their merit and obligation, for there is no obligation upon Him in any deed towards anyone. Tyranny is inconceivable in Him, for there is no right upon Him towards anyone.”

While these are the Islamic beliefs on Allah in written form, it must be noted that a person is not accountable for his intellectual understanding of them, but rather he is responsible for truly incorporating them in his heart. True conviction in Allah’s existence and in His actual relationship with every one of us comes only with His mercy and guidance. As such, Muslims ask Allah in every prayer for guidance unto His Straight Path.

Ameen. InshaAllah, brothers and sisters in Islam, let us all pray for Allah (s.w.t.) to Guide us Always, and Be with us always, and Be in our hearts always, and to Help us and Will us to cleanse our soul and heart constantly. May we all do good deeds in His Name, and inshaAllah, may we all be good and constantly being better Mu’mins and Mu’minahs. Ameen, Ya Allah.

Poetry: Existence

15 Mar

Existence

Intangible

as it is questioned time and again

For what reason is it here?

Or is it here to begin with?

But then you stop and realize

that you’re capable of thinking so.

Hence, it could be that it really is here.

You think, you see, you hear, you feel,

You react to the world acting upon you.

If that is so,

For whom, for what,

or why is it here then?

The answer might be different

from  one to another.

Or could it be that there’s

this prime and sole answer?

That it is here for the One

that began all;

To dedicate, to love, to give,

To worship.

So it could be meaningful and precious

For it to transcend to That other entity

that would last forever,

which would justify everything intangible

Tangible.

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It has been forever since I wrote something. I blame school and the fast pace of my current life. HAHA. Not that I am complaining though. Alhamdulillah, I am almost done with my junior year under my bachelor’s degree. 8D InshaAllah, one more academic year, and I am done with my undergraduate degree. :D

I wrote this by the way when I got tired studying all those genetic diseases. HAHA. I always do something aside from studying while I am studying. LOL. Did that even make sense? HAHA.

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My prayer.

6 Mar

Lately, I feel like I’ve been detached from a lot of things. I feel detached from my Love, Allah (s.w.t.) and I fear being like this. It’s heart-breaking when you finally come to realize how you’ve been waking up and going to sleep, and doing the usual stuff that you do in the most mundane way possible. And I don’t like feeling empty; a feeling that comes to me whenever I come to put aside the most important thing in my life. The one that keeps me inspired. And now, as I realize that I am once again falling into mundaneness, I try to cling to the things that keep my life alive. Please, don’t let me fall.

I know I will always put Allah first in my life, because my life is His and for Him to begin with and will always be. But there are just times, times when I get caught in the busy-ness of my life, and other shallow things in life that I don’t notice how I turn to forget about my sole and initial purpose in this world, little by little. And it’s dreadful. It’s awful. I am praying that I become steadfast once again, and remain as such no matter how difficult it is being that way. I can do this, I know. With Allah’s help and in His Will, I can be like that. InshaAllah. Ya Allah. Please, never forsake me. I pray that you Guide me always, and don’t let me go astray. Ya Allah, please, please, please, please. Never leave my heart. You are my Hope, my Number One, my Love, and my Everything. You are the Hope in Hopelessness, and the Light in the Darkness. So, Ya Allah, please. I pray that you make my Faith stronger. Make me a better and stronger believer, for Your Sake. Aameen.

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